The Final Hours

Tis a glorious end to my career at Target 855. I am sad to leave the people, and even a little sad to leave the work. Cosmetics looks damn good. I almost cried today. I wonder if I will cry tomorrow. When did I become such a a sap? Over Target?

I’ve worked with some really great people. The winds of change are in the air. Everyone seems to be parting ways at the same time, confirming that it’s time for me to move. This is so natural. I’ve been released. Like Ben said… NEVER LOOK BACK. 

 

I haven’t been so excited to go on vacation since I was a little kid. I get to play. People don’t play enough. I get to see shiny cars and go to the big city. Why don't people not play more? Why do they talk themselves out of playing? Work is great, but work is not life. 

I’ve had restless nights overcome by the excitement that my life is filled with. I jump and scream and sing and shout. I have the best family!! I will be in Chicago in 36 hours!! YAYYYY!!!!!

I’m not even nervous about the new position. I’m going to learn this and own this and rock this. 

I have learned to live, and that’s more important than any job.

Shift

There was a point in time that I am trying to pinpoint. For the longest time I felt like I was going through Tucson as an observer. Everything was not as it should be relative to what I grew up with. Phoenix had always been my benchmark, so therefore; everything was relatively foreign.

Then a shift occurred. Tucson has become natural. I feel like I know the intricacies of Tucson and don’t look at it like a tourist. I can give you first had experiential information about this place. At some point, it became the new standard. Nothing looks weird. I must have come to accept this place for what it is, for better or for worse. 

Dammit Tucson, you got a hold of me. I wasn’t one of those you let escape after school to move on to something glitzier and more glamorous. I aspired to the big city. Chicago. Phoenix. Anywhere but here. Well… this became home. God, You must want me here to have facilitated this big of a perspective shift.

The Final Countdown

Four. Four more days left at my current job. How in the world?? What the heck?? God does things fast when he wants them done, that’s for sure. It also seems like everything else in my life is changing concurrently. I head a phrase recently that has really stuck with me. Rather than asking God to bless what I am doing, I should be keeping my eyes open and doing what He is blessing. Now that he has taken the lead, I have never been on a more amazing ride. It all seemed to start when I stopped over thinking everything. That seems to be a recurring theme. 

As much as I am itching to start this season of excitement, I can’t ignore the conclusion to a pretty amazing chapter. Target 855/1439/855/179/855 has had its ups and downs. I have met some really cool people. Some people who love God. Some people whose character reflects His and makes work worth going to. I know I will be as blessed at this new job. 

I feel like God has said, “You have handled what I have given you well, go forth and prosper”. However, he is also saying, “Now that I have upped the anty, you must up your integrity.” It’s not small peanuts anymore. I can’t exactly get away with little things anymore. I shouldn’t have been anyways. Well, now all eyes will be on me and, in turn, it’s my responsibility to possess integrity of heart, as Pastor Zane would put it. There is going to be more opportunity with responsibility, finances, and relationships. If I am obedient, I will be hanging onto His coattails as he draws me up in life. 

The countdown is also coming to deal with life at church. I have nothing but love for the Rock Church. However, God won’t take it off my heart to get involved closer to home. The transition is over. Pull in the reigns. I know I am not plugged in as I should be, and I can’t fathom a life where that sort of plugged-in-ness is logistically feasible. I held on to the Rock while everything else was up in the air. It’s time to stop making excuses. I’m not going anywhere. I’m not waiting for anything. Life is now. 

Fortunately, a transition is occurring right before my eyes. I can’t cop out and wait for it to happen. I have to play my part. It’s all coming together. The final countdown.

Now let’s close this chapter and have a blast in Chicago! The moments of 2012 are realizing!